The 30 pound itch

 

I don't know what my deal is.

I've done Weight Watchers a couple of different times now, and I love it - when I focus and follow the plan, don't get obsessive about anything, and keep active, it is so, so easy.

Until it isn't.

Without fail, every time I hit the 30 pound milestone, I start to stall, then backpedal, then give up completely.

What is it about that number?

I feel like part of it has to do with the amount of weight I'm trying to lose overall. 30 pounds is a terrific loss - I can see it, I can feel it, and it's an incredible bit of progress. But it's still so, so far from where I want to be, and that can be frustrating. It can be tough also to put in so much good work, only to realize you've hardly made any progress to the top of an incredibly high mountain.

The problem is that the going gets tough, and it's easier to give up than push through it and keep fighting for what I want most. The things that are worth it are hardly easy.

I also tend to cave when life gets busy or complicated, instead of finding a way to stay balanced and keep my goals in mind. I'm very much an emotional eater, a stress eater, an anxious eater. And the times when I have thrown in the towel? I was definitely in a rough spot.

This time, I'm choosing to push through this mental plateau. I'm not going to fall into the old traps. I just have to keep reminding myself: it's not easy, but it's worth it.

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